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I met this guy from a common interest group, rather he approached me first. We started talking as friends and there was heavy flirting from his end and I ended up getting closer to him, somehow we started sexting(it was his idea), which made me closer to him. We talked for hours on calls and video calls and then one day through some post in that group, I found out that he has a gf, I was shattered and wanted to leave, I told him all about my feelings and said I'd leave, he requested and convinced me to stay and told me how important I was for him, I stayed because I love him but soon we again resumed sexting, which made me feel so guilty.
Then one day I again saw his and his gf's comment on a post which showed that they were pretty serious(he has met his gf from the same group as well).
So I told him this and blocked him from everywhere and cried for the whole day, and at night I got few sms from him asking me to come back and telling me how lonely and empty he felt.
I again couldn't do it and came back but this time I asked all my questions directly from him. I asked him why he'd feel lonely if I leave even though he has a gf and how can he cheat on her when he's that level serious. He said he doesn't have any logical answer for that, he just told me not to leave. But then I argued more and pointed out his past( a girl had left him 6 years ago, whom he loved a lot and ever since he has been cheating), all this made him feel low and he accepted that he's a cheater and playing with both his gf's and my feelings, we both deserve someone better. He said he'd break up with her and I can leave too, he'll just focus on his career now. The fact that he was making no more effort to make me stay broke me and I cried and told him I want to stick by as a friend and i asked him to tell the truth to his gf and let her decide what she wants.
He finally didn't break up with her and neither told her the truth and is still friends with me.
It's been around 10 months since I'm talking to him and he has known his gf for 3.5years. I love him , I love him a lot, but he loves her and this makes me think that there's something lacking in me that I'm not good enough for him. They talk so romantically when I see the comments on fb and this makes me question why her? why not me?
Before this , twice guys have left me for their exes. I have done nothing wrong, I always invest myself fully in any relationship and I'm ready to make all sacrifices, still why does everyone choose someone else over me.
I love this guy a lot, if I can't get him I wanna get over him by still being friends.
But last two times it took me more than an year to get over the other guys, I heal very slowly. People say I'm pretty and kind and helpful andI have a good job as well , I am 23 and still I've never been in any long term relationship. I crave emotional intimacy with someone special, I feel I've become desperate. I am an introvert so I hardly talk to many people.
Help me, I love this guy and him choosing someone else over me makes me lower my self-esteem. I just wanna be my old confident self again, all this has changed me.
Then one day I again saw his and his gf's comment on a post which showed that they were pretty serious(he has met his gf from the same group as well).
So I told him this and blocked him from everywhere and cried for the whole day, and at night I got few sms from him asking me to come back and telling me how lonely and empty he felt.
I again couldn't do it and came back but this time I asked all my questions directly from him. I asked him why he'd feel lonely if I leave even though he has a gf and how can he cheat on her when he's that level serious. He said he doesn't have any logical answer for that, he just told me not to leave. But then I argued more and pointed out his past( a girl had left him 6 years ago, whom he loved a lot and ever since he has been cheating), all this made him feel low and he accepted that he's a cheater and playing with both his gf's and my feelings, we both deserve someone better. He said he'd break up with her and I can leave too, he'll just focus on his career now. The fact that he was making no more effort to make me stay broke me and I cried and told him I want to stick by as a friend and i asked him to tell the truth to his gf and let her decide what she wants.
He finally didn't break up with her and neither told her the truth and is still friends with me.
It's been around 10 months since I'm talking to him and he has known his gf for 3.5years. I love him , I love him a lot, but he loves her and this makes me think that there's something lacking in me that I'm not good enough for him. They talk so romantically when I see the comments on fb and this makes me question why her? why not me?
Before this , twice guys have left me for their exes. I have done nothing wrong, I always invest myself fully in any relationship and I'm ready to make all sacrifices, still why does everyone choose someone else over me.
I love this guy a lot, if I can't get him I wanna get over him by still being friends.
But last two times it took me more than an year to get over the other guys, I heal very slowly. People say I'm pretty and kind and helpful andI have a good job as well , I am 23 and still I've never been in any long term relationship. I crave emotional intimacy with someone special, I feel I've become desperate. I am an introvert so I hardly talk to many people.
Help me, I love this guy and him choosing someone else over me makes me lower my self-esteem. I just wanna be my old confident self again, all this has changed me.
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