So to sum this up quickly, I strike up a conversation with a girl I went to high school with online. We’ve know each other for 10 years but have never talked or gotten to know each other. I end up taking her on a date, followed by like 6 movie nights at her house where we would cuddle and kiss and that’s it. Never had sex. I wasn’t overly attracted to her, and call me shallow but she was like 50 pounds to large for me, and I didn’t decide this for sure until after the few hangout sessions. An ex gf comes into my life so I stop talking to this girl and date my ex for the next year. This girl is broken hearted and upset and that’s that.
A year later me and my ex split up and I run into this girl again and she’s lost like 60 pounds and is just drop dead gorgeous of course. I loved her personality before so I pursue her. She’s unsure at first but eventually I find out I was pretty much her dream man so she tries it out. We date for two years, engaged for a year, then get married. We have a baby daughter together (who is now 18 months old) and a year after we get married everything goes wrong. I end up with a drug addiction to opiates and she’s super straight edge and tries to get me to quit but I can’t. So eventually she leaves me and divorces me. Since the divorce I get clean and go to rehab and become my old self again. She refuses to talk to me in any way. Not even give it a chance. She’s too upset about the addiction and doesn’t believe I go clean. So I continue to live hoping she’ll see I’m clean and see my baby as much as possible and she said she’ll never believe it. She hasn’t dated anyone else or Tried to and neither have I. But she still won’t even talk to me. So I make a snap chat account and pose as an old friend to see photos of the baby and end up talking to her. Best communication we’ve ever had, fully open and love every second of it and she keeps saying it’s like she’s met her soul mate and we’re so compatible etc etc. I’m being myself completely. We decide to meet up, for a physical encounter to have sex because were so sexually compatible and she sends me pics and videos (never did when we were married) that’s how haead over heels she is for me and exploring new things. I tell her it’s not who she thinks and she assumes it might be her ex husband, but I didn’t verify that for her because it could have been way worse. What do I do to show her we were so compatible because I’m the same guy I was the first time she dated? She was upset at being led on and deceived so I can’t say it was me even if she unofficially knows. I just don’t know what to do, and now I feel like a total creep. I never have talked to someone for a month that was so perfect, and now can’t progress anywhere. Should I cut my losses and move on the best I can? Or just Wait it out and stay back? I’m so confused, I just know I want to be with her; but she has this image of me being a monster. Any advice is greatly appreciated, thanks.
A year later me and my ex split up and I run into this girl again and she’s lost like 60 pounds and is just drop dead gorgeous of course. I loved her personality before so I pursue her. She’s unsure at first but eventually I find out I was pretty much her dream man so she tries it out. We date for two years, engaged for a year, then get married. We have a baby daughter together (who is now 18 months old) and a year after we get married everything goes wrong. I end up with a drug addiction to opiates and she’s super straight edge and tries to get me to quit but I can’t. So eventually she leaves me and divorces me. Since the divorce I get clean and go to rehab and become my old self again. She refuses to talk to me in any way. Not even give it a chance. She’s too upset about the addiction and doesn’t believe I go clean. So I continue to live hoping she’ll see I’m clean and see my baby as much as possible and she said she’ll never believe it. She hasn’t dated anyone else or Tried to and neither have I. But she still won’t even talk to me. So I make a snap chat account and pose as an old friend to see photos of the baby and end up talking to her. Best communication we’ve ever had, fully open and love every second of it and she keeps saying it’s like she’s met her soul mate and we’re so compatible etc etc. I’m being myself completely. We decide to meet up, for a physical encounter to have sex because were so sexually compatible and she sends me pics and videos (never did when we were married) that’s how haead over heels she is for me and exploring new things. I tell her it’s not who she thinks and she assumes it might be her ex husband, but I didn’t verify that for her because it could have been way worse. What do I do to show her we were so compatible because I’m the same guy I was the first time she dated? She was upset at being led on and deceived so I can’t say it was me even if she unofficially knows. I just don’t know what to do, and now I feel like a total creep. I never have talked to someone for a month that was so perfect, and now can’t progress anywhere. Should I cut my losses and move on the best I can? Or just Wait it out and stay back? I’m so confused, I just know I want to be with her; but she has this image of me being a monster. Any advice is greatly appreciated, thanks.
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