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My story started 5 years back when I met a colleague who was 8 years older than me, I was 22. In the first two weeks I didn't even know that we are batchmates during the training, I have very vague memories about him as he was not my type at all. After that he started showing signs that he likes me and I got scared a bit giving him signs that I don't like him. But after that I decided that I should give him a chance even if he didn't tell me anything about us or his thoughts. Therefore after few days I realised I am falling in love with him but he was becoming distant so I told him I like him but he had no reaction. Long story short, after I while we made love after telling each other that we dont want a relationship (i just lied cause i thought if i say the truth I will not have him at all cause I was very in love) and I felt after i dont like him and I was ashamed about what happened. He wrote to me for 2 days after but I didnt reply and at a party after I behaved like nothing happened. But after the party I made a decision to want him back but guess what? he was barely replying to my messages. We had a big fight where I offended him. I dont know if it was only ambition but I suffered a lot after loosing him cause he blocked me from everywhere. After 6 months he unblocked me, we started talking but again he said he doesnt want a relationship so I didnt have sex with him but we were sleeping next to each other and after 2 weeks we had again a fight, again I was blocked. After another 6 months he came bavk again..2 weeks was perfect but again he didnt want a relationship but he was cooking for me and going to the supermarket abd sleeping together without making love until one day when he told me we should stop all this.I suffered a lot so I decided to leave the country were I was working and where we met. I decided to move on, I found a very good guy who loved me and everthing was fine until I found out that the other guy got married 2 years and a half after I left. My heart broke into pieces, I was depressed for 1 month, crying a lot understanding that he will never come back or message me again even if I was long gone. 6 months after I married too. I love my husband but inside I am suffering, I dont get why that guy didnt wanna try to be with me at least one day, at least to try as I tried 5 years back to fall in love with him.After I got married I tried contacting him as I returned to work in the same country where we met and he still works but no answer from him, he doesnt wanna talk to me even if I am suffering. I dont wanna break his marriage, I just want answers, I hurts me that he is married and I cant change anything and I am sure he would have met me if he would have been single. I dont know why he is behaving like this. I am jealous that I am not his wife, sometimes I will I love him in a way but I would never cheat my husband. I wish I could see him one more time, i miss him so much...How can I make him talk to me, and why is he hating me so much?
My story started 5 years back when I met a colleague who was 8 years older than me, I was 22. In the first two weeks I didn't even know that we are batchmates during the training, I have very vague memories about him as he was not my type at all. After that he started showing signs that he likes me and I got scared a bit giving him signs that I don't like him. But after that I decided that I should give him a chance even if he didn't tell me anything about us or his thoughts. Therefore after few days I realised I am falling in love with him but he was becoming distant so I told him I like him but he had no reaction. Long story short, after I while we made love after telling each other that we dont want a relationship (i just lied cause i thought if i say the truth I will not have him at all cause I was very in love) and I felt after i dont like him and I was ashamed about what happened. He wrote to me for 2 days after but I didnt reply and at a party after I behaved like nothing happened. But after the party I made a decision to want him back but guess what? he was barely replying to my messages. We had a big fight where I offended him. I dont know if it was only ambition but I suffered a lot after loosing him cause he blocked me from everywhere. After 6 months he unblocked me, we started talking but again he said he doesnt want a relationship so I didnt have sex with him but we were sleeping next to each other and after 2 weeks we had again a fight, again I was blocked. After another 6 months he came bavk again..2 weeks was perfect but again he didnt want a relationship but he was cooking for me and going to the supermarket abd sleeping together without making love until one day when he told me we should stop all this.I suffered a lot so I decided to leave the country were I was working and where we met. I decided to move on, I found a very good guy who loved me and everthing was fine until I found out that the other guy got married 2 years and a half after I left. My heart broke into pieces, I was depressed for 1 month, crying a lot understanding that he will never come back or message me again even if I was long gone. 6 months after I married too. I love my husband but inside I am suffering, I dont get why that guy didnt wanna try to be with me at least one day, at least to try as I tried 5 years back to fall in love with him.After I got married I tried contacting him as I returned to work in the same country where we met and he still works but no answer from him, he doesnt wanna talk to me even if I am suffering. I dont wanna break his marriage, I just want answers, I hurts me that he is married and I cant change anything and I am sure he would have met me if he would have been single. I dont know why he is behaving like this. I am jealous that I am not his wife, sometimes I will I love him in a way but I would never cheat my husband. I wish I could see him one more time, i miss him so much...How can I make him talk to me, and why is he hating me so much?
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