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I'm devastated when I should be extremely hapyy. I live in Germany for the last 4 years, never liked much but the last year was the worse. Come out of a 10 years relationship and most of my good friends left the country.
2 months ago a freind of mine in a different country ask me for my help setting a business. I have been working as a consultant chef during my free time and traveling 2 weekends per month to help set up in location. Next weekend it would be my last trip and end my work. Two weeks ago, don't know why I join an app like tinder and right on the same day on girl contact me (actually she was the only one that contact me) right before flying. We kept talking and the weekend after we meet for coffee. There instant chemistry. I had not seen anyone since my ex left 3 months ago and was ok with it so I decided to take it slowly. 3 days after we meet again and after a while we kiss and felt really good. We set up a lunch at my place, I'm a chef and wanted to cook for her. I didn't know what to expect and was a bit nervous, the time came and we meet and before we knew we were all over each other, had great sex, intense and spend day cuddling. Next day the same. Everything seemed was going perfect, we liked doing the same things, felt really comfortable with each other. We spend a great weekend together, a long time I hadn't felt this way.
2 days later my friend rang me to go over last details and I told him that I had met someone and was starting to fall in love. He then told me he was going to surprise me when I visit him but due to my revelation, he told me over the phone that the place I was helping him with he wants me to run it. He was sure I would say yes because I had told him many times I was desperate to leave Germany and for a new start, even joked with him the job should be mine. He had already organised a moving company to move my stuff and money for deposit for flat. This is the greatest single opportunity in my life but somehow I fell terrible. I haven't slept for 2 nights trying to figure out what to do. Choose head over heart, work over love. No matter what I choose I will always think what if... If only life was like movies, but I know it isn't, she is amazing but I only know her 2 weeks. I don't know how to tell her, I don't want to break her heart. She also have come from a long relationship and I'm afraid I will hurt her. If only she hadn't liked me so much and I her. This suck. Advices and opinions would be great.
2 months ago a freind of mine in a different country ask me for my help setting a business. I have been working as a consultant chef during my free time and traveling 2 weekends per month to help set up in location. Next weekend it would be my last trip and end my work. Two weeks ago, don't know why I join an app like tinder and right on the same day on girl contact me (actually she was the only one that contact me) right before flying. We kept talking and the weekend after we meet for coffee. There instant chemistry. I had not seen anyone since my ex left 3 months ago and was ok with it so I decided to take it slowly. 3 days after we meet again and after a while we kiss and felt really good. We set up a lunch at my place, I'm a chef and wanted to cook for her. I didn't know what to expect and was a bit nervous, the time came and we meet and before we knew we were all over each other, had great sex, intense and spend day cuddling. Next day the same. Everything seemed was going perfect, we liked doing the same things, felt really comfortable with each other. We spend a great weekend together, a long time I hadn't felt this way.
2 days later my friend rang me to go over last details and I told him that I had met someone and was starting to fall in love. He then told me he was going to surprise me when I visit him but due to my revelation, he told me over the phone that the place I was helping him with he wants me to run it. He was sure I would say yes because I had told him many times I was desperate to leave Germany and for a new start, even joked with him the job should be mine. He had already organised a moving company to move my stuff and money for deposit for flat. This is the greatest single opportunity in my life but somehow I fell terrible. I haven't slept for 2 nights trying to figure out what to do. Choose head over heart, work over love. No matter what I choose I will always think what if... If only life was like movies, but I know it isn't, she is amazing but I only know her 2 weeks. I don't know how to tell her, I don't want to break her heart. She also have come from a long relationship and I'm afraid I will hurt her. If only she hadn't liked me so much and I her. This suck. Advices and opinions would be great.
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