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Hello to everyone my name is Aleksandar and im 27 year old, i would like to tell me your opinion and i will be very thank full to give me some advice.
My english isn't perfect and i'm sorry for that.
We had a very healthy relationship, for 3 years, 2 years we had normal relationship we lived in same city and we were together everyday, and 1 year long distance relationship. Her job application was accepted in another country (6000-KM away from home town). So we chose to not give up and continue with our relationship, she told me that she will back in 1-2 years, its enough to make some money during we are younger (we were 24-25 year old) .. Separation was very painful for both... I was able to stop her to not going, if i said don't go, she was ready to not go, but i didn't wanted to stop her from her dream job. Because i thinked for the future.. what if we maybe break up soon here and she not go just for me? She would hate me the most in the world... I did not want to be an obstacle, i didn't wanted to stop her, but i was dying inside me coz he leaving me.
I loved her the most in this world, also she loved me i was her world, we had our own world...
After she land there, we started to chat everyday on facebook,skype, we had video chat everyday days, after 6 months she come back to home for vacation for 2 weeks, we spend all days together, the separation was very painful, also her next vacation was in next 6 months also it passed the same way like first one and separation killed me...
I don't had enough strength to live with that pain anymore, i missed her, i was in depression and after some time I decided to tell her that i cannot live without her anymore, i miss her and i decide to break up because we are not happy both of us like this, i feel her, she was not happy , i cannot make her happy via internet, i hated almost long distance relationship and that happened to me... With a lot of drama we break up but she wanted to stay in contact with me and to be friends... 1 and half year ago from today we break up. But we never stop our contact, after break we chated once every 2-3 days first two months. Next 4-5 that we chated rarely once in 2 week, next 1 year we contact once per month for sure, we date twice time when she had vacation but every time we end up with fight, but we still not stopped our contact after some time around 1 month we contact again and we forgets about all dramas between us.
Our last date was 1 year from now, during that we haven't seen each other, she came this summer in vacation again but i was in another country that period and we not meet up.
4 Day ago from now she text me and told me she going to come home and stay here for 3 days and if she have time she going to call me for a quick cafe, i just say ok. (Last 3-4 months in our conversations on internet i not show any fellings was a bit cold).
Today she call me, "Hay how are you? Let go for a quick cafe because i don't have so much time" yeah i said sure i coming to pick up you in 1 hour. And we meet up we drinked cafe, we talked a lot, first date without drama, everything was fine, she tell me "From this perspective i see i make best choice that i accept the job, you know i thinked alot before i go, today I am much more mature i can live alone" I said yeah i'm agree u did the best choice ( in my mind i said "for the sacrifice of our love").
And after lot of talks she asked me "Do you date any girl"? I said no i told she the truth. The main reason i don't date any girl is because i still love her, my emotions is still sucked with her, the main reason is i cant forget her coz we end up without not big reason, and i always had hope for us. And i asked her do you dating someone? do you have someone in your life? She said yes but its nothing serious, just for fun, here where i live its hard to find someone for real relationship because of many reasons.. I saw her reaction how she say it, she was not so sure of what she says i think she lied to me but not its not metter she lie or no i can't understand what the point of the date. Also she say get some girlfriend for 4 fun here in our city is so boring as i see.
I want to ask u guys.?
Whats the point of meeting with an ex ?
Is she planing something for us or just playing with me?
Whats the point of our meeting if she really dating someone else?
Why she spend 2 hours of her limited time with me? She should spend that time with her best friend or family?
Why she gives me false hope ?
Why she not told me on facebook that she dating with soemone else?
Why she keeps the contact with me?
Why she like almost all my posts on facebook?
Why if she dating someone not stop contact with me?
If she want me back why she plays games?
Why she makes me jealous ?
Why she not just stop the contact with me forever?
I have a lot questions in my mind and can't find correct answer.
I really don't want to be her friend and listen about her dates. I meet with she because i still love her and want she back.
I very confused why we are still in contact.... (Also i gave some cheap gifts that i buy from my vacation in this summer, and she knowed that i told her on facebook, and she reacted like "you don't have to buy anything for me to spend your money for me, Who i'am ? you dont have to think for me, but anyways its ok you thinked for me its cool but u dont have to..."
She told me that she will came for vacation in January 2019 and she will call me for cafe maybe, i said ok but im not sure should i go if she call me or no and still cant understand why she want spend time with me if she not interested to start over.
Was relaxed with my mind last months, but today i'm confused and nervous and i think those meeting breaking my hearth and confusing my mind, as i understand contact with ex and meeting is for new begging to reborn relationship.
I'm ready to get back with her again but if she come back to home forever (if she left the job she have)...
Is she plays some game maybe with me? because i feel she abusing me..
Thanks you for reading my story and i hope u will give me answers to some of my questions that i have in my mind and some good advice what to do on next date, should i go or no.
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