Hey. Im a [24M] my ex is a [22F]
Last year 6th November I met the girl of my dreams. ( we both agree on this ) We hit it off instantly. Within 4 weeks we had a relationship. This relationship lasted 4 months with 1 of us living together.
Then we broke up. And our breakup was terrible. ( lasted about 10 months ) I stalked her with I cant say how many messages we made eachother jelous by the most redicilous things ever.
I discovered I have borderline. I cant controle my emotions. During our relationship I lied alot and I emotionally ruined this girl. She also has anxiety issues.
Last 2 weeks we were in good contact again. We kissed and hugged last yesterday. ( During our contact she constantly got mad about a girl I had sex with while we were not together ( she broke up with me )
Yesterday we got in a huge argument again. I confronted her with that I need more then “just talking” she did not even save my contact in her phone. She said it was over but we continue to argue.
So I went to her house. I was needy. I cried the whole time. She said that I dont understand her. “ I should be happy that she “Just wants to talk” She didnt know if it would ever work out because her family wont approve ( she choses her family of me which I understand ) and because of what happend. We hugged. She didnt want to Kiss. ( one on the cheek ) then I wanted to give her a hand and she became extremely mad. We agreed to sent Sweet dreams with a Kiss emoji. She said “Goodnight” with a other emoji. She didnt know if she loved me because she doesnt love herself. She blocked me on Instagram after ( probarly because I knew she was checking me )
My question is guys, Do you Still think she loves me? I know our relationship was toxic and the best thing is to move on. But I right now I Just want to know if you guys she Still loves me and if there is any hope?
Note: Yes I am aware of my mistakes. I’m in therapy for my borderline. Yes I know our relationship was toxic. I know the best thing is to move on for her and me I’m Just curious if she stoll loves me. We havnt spoken for a day now. Our longest without was 3 weeks then she or me searched contact. ( fighting, or Just saying Ho. Of she indirected contacted by liking she picture of the 1 girl I slept with while we were not together ( which she Still gets jelous and mad about )
Last year 6th November I met the girl of my dreams. ( we both agree on this ) We hit it off instantly. Within 4 weeks we had a relationship. This relationship lasted 4 months with 1 of us living together.
Then we broke up. And our breakup was terrible. ( lasted about 10 months ) I stalked her with I cant say how many messages we made eachother jelous by the most redicilous things ever.
I discovered I have borderline. I cant controle my emotions. During our relationship I lied alot and I emotionally ruined this girl. She also has anxiety issues.
Last 2 weeks we were in good contact again. We kissed and hugged last yesterday. ( During our contact she constantly got mad about a girl I had sex with while we were not together ( she broke up with me )
Yesterday we got in a huge argument again. I confronted her with that I need more then “just talking” she did not even save my contact in her phone. She said it was over but we continue to argue.
So I went to her house. I was needy. I cried the whole time. She said that I dont understand her. “ I should be happy that she “Just wants to talk” She didnt know if it would ever work out because her family wont approve ( she choses her family of me which I understand ) and because of what happend. We hugged. She didnt want to Kiss. ( one on the cheek ) then I wanted to give her a hand and she became extremely mad. We agreed to sent Sweet dreams with a Kiss emoji. She said “Goodnight” with a other emoji. She didnt know if she loved me because she doesnt love herself. She blocked me on Instagram after ( probarly because I knew she was checking me )
My question is guys, Do you Still think she loves me? I know our relationship was toxic and the best thing is to move on. But I right now I Just want to know if you guys she Still loves me and if there is any hope?
Note: Yes I am aware of my mistakes. I’m in therapy for my borderline. Yes I know our relationship was toxic. I know the best thing is to move on for her and me I’m Just curious if she stoll loves me. We havnt spoken for a day now. Our longest without was 3 weeks then she or me searched contact. ( fighting, or Just saying Ho. Of she indirected contacted by liking she picture of the 1 girl I slept with while we were not together ( which she Still gets jelous and mad about )
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