I was in a relationship with a guy for 3.5 years. My love for him was pure and sure straight form the heart no filters attached. I did not want anything form life except his love. To cut it short he was god to me. He loved me alot too.both of us are giving professional exams which he was not able to clear since two years. 3 months ago his parents said alot of new sense to him and stopped talking to him because he was not able to clear exams and I was to blame for his faliuers as per them and him too to an extent. However this was not at all the case, he failed because if his mistakes which he never accept and would put the name on me. We mutually decided not to talk untill he clears his exmas and I initiated it. I did not contact him for a week but he called after a week and talked very rudely to me. I asked for the reason for such rudeness replying to which he said it's over. I kept on requesting him not to do this as it would break me down and my life would be finsihed. He said it was just an impulsive reaction but he refused to share a thing with me( it's very unusual because we shared a life together). I kept on requesting begging him not do this but probably this irritated him more. I also forced him to an extent beacuse I was not able to accept the fact of him leaving me. In the mean while he developed a throat infection and was not allowed to speak but since I use to call him and cry he use to talk to me this made his throat worse. Sonhe hates me more for this. It's very unlikely taht he will recover any soon. He and I said a lot of shitty things to each other in anger. I was angry at him for just abondoning me like this it was all a pool of emotions I experienced heart brake insecurity helplessness love and and what not things. I apologised to for my apparent mistakes thinking this would bring him back but it was if no use. I tried to end my life but dint have the guts to do that. I tried to stop feeling about him but failed in the same too. He has agreed to meet me next month after the exams. My exams are screwed as am not able to concentrate anywhere. he does not wants to come back but I can not do without him I have realised it. Life is all filled of so much of gloom and restlessness.
Things have become very complex. I am ready to do anything to say anything of any extent to get him back in my life.
I would be great full if you could help me out in this situation and please advice what should I do and what should I tell him once we meet in the next month to get him back.
Things have become very complex. I am ready to do anything to say anything of any extent to get him back in my life.
I would be great full if you could help me out in this situation and please advice what should I do and what should I tell him once we meet in the next month to get him back.
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