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Hello, (i know its a long text but i'm very lost and have no one to ask advice please)
it's been 2years that i have been practicing almost every day with my trainer. I practice a sport which is mainly a "men sport" (but i'm very feminine) so we are very few girls in the gym and i'm currently the only one who is doing competition.
My trainer is great , he trains me well, isn't pay for his job and his passion for this sport take him so much time that it cost him a divorce.
I have very low self-esteem and he was always patient and had kind words when i cried because i was scared of loosing in the competition. I started this year some competitions and i won all of them (mainly because of him training me and suporting me).
My problem is that i'm deeply falling in love with him. I'm 25 years old and he his almost twice my age, he doesn't look interested in me and just see me as her daughter and that hurt so much that it affect my training and just want to go way from him and switch the gym. I don't know if he's physically attracted to me,the first time he told me that i was a beautiful women was after the competition, he wanted to warn me about the mens that was getting around me and looking at me because (what he said) "i'm a beautiful women". The more i did competition the more we had argument about the mens. In my last competition he was angry because the male audiance was kind of sleepy with other athletes's performances but when i started mine they was screaming my name and encouraging me and he was also mad because i laught with some or shake hands. He looked very jalous and told me that he wasn't beeing jalous but just traying to protect me and my image.
Before starting competitions i wanted to quitt my trainer because i realized that i was falling for him. I told him false reason off why i wanted to live hidding my love. Finally i stayed hoping that those feelings will goes away. After a few months and being more in love i admit to my coach that i want to live him because i am attracted by him. He didn't wanted to lose me. He answered me at first "damn, how can you be attracted by me ?" and then it told me that i'm a women and i know how to control myself, he then tell me that it was notihing to worry about and tried hard to keep me at the gym by many calls and long messages. Few days after i texted him to apologize off saying such things and blaming it for beeing too tired with the competition. I get back to gym and we pretended as nothing happened.
Now we had an argument about something and i used that as an excuse to told him that i'm lefting him. He never text me back.
I'm lost. I want to continu training with him because he his a great trainer and lead me to victory but at the same time i'm hurt by this intense love i feel for him. I don't know if he is attracted and feel something for me or no. Before he knew my atraction to him he told me that he won't trains girls anymore. I tried to ask him why several times but he didnt answer me and got shy. I felt as if it was because he was falling for me and felt it wasn't professional. He his a very respectful and professional person and his passion come before a love affaire (even if it cost a divorce). He later told me that it creat proximity and feelings with the athlete those competitions, that he was getting attached.
Do you think he ignored my attraction because is not attracted by me or because he want to stay professional ?
Should i continu to train with him or change my trainer even if i know i would get disapointed with another one?
it's been 2years that i have been practicing almost every day with my trainer. I practice a sport which is mainly a "men sport" (but i'm very feminine) so we are very few girls in the gym and i'm currently the only one who is doing competition.
My trainer is great , he trains me well, isn't pay for his job and his passion for this sport take him so much time that it cost him a divorce.
I have very low self-esteem and he was always patient and had kind words when i cried because i was scared of loosing in the competition. I started this year some competitions and i won all of them (mainly because of him training me and suporting me).
My problem is that i'm deeply falling in love with him. I'm 25 years old and he his almost twice my age, he doesn't look interested in me and just see me as her daughter and that hurt so much that it affect my training and just want to go way from him and switch the gym. I don't know if he's physically attracted to me,the first time he told me that i was a beautiful women was after the competition, he wanted to warn me about the mens that was getting around me and looking at me because (what he said) "i'm a beautiful women". The more i did competition the more we had argument about the mens. In my last competition he was angry because the male audiance was kind of sleepy with other athletes's performances but when i started mine they was screaming my name and encouraging me and he was also mad because i laught with some or shake hands. He looked very jalous and told me that he wasn't beeing jalous but just traying to protect me and my image.
Before starting competitions i wanted to quitt my trainer because i realized that i was falling for him. I told him false reason off why i wanted to live hidding my love. Finally i stayed hoping that those feelings will goes away. After a few months and being more in love i admit to my coach that i want to live him because i am attracted by him. He didn't wanted to lose me. He answered me at first "damn, how can you be attracted by me ?" and then it told me that i'm a women and i know how to control myself, he then tell me that it was notihing to worry about and tried hard to keep me at the gym by many calls and long messages. Few days after i texted him to apologize off saying such things and blaming it for beeing too tired with the competition. I get back to gym and we pretended as nothing happened.
Now we had an argument about something and i used that as an excuse to told him that i'm lefting him. He never text me back.
I'm lost. I want to continu training with him because he his a great trainer and lead me to victory but at the same time i'm hurt by this intense love i feel for him. I don't know if he is attracted and feel something for me or no. Before he knew my atraction to him he told me that he won't trains girls anymore. I tried to ask him why several times but he didnt answer me and got shy. I felt as if it was because he was falling for me and felt it wasn't professional. He his a very respectful and professional person and his passion come before a love affaire (even if it cost a divorce). He later told me that it creat proximity and feelings with the athlete those competitions, that he was getting attached.
Do you think he ignored my attraction because is not attracted by me or because he want to stay professional ?
Should i continu to train with him or change my trainer even if i know i would get disapointed with another one?
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