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I think my marriage will be over soon. I work but I've been a good househusband and primary caregiver to 3 very young girls. I've kept my eyes and ears open so I know the dread that's coming. My spouse of 10 years is now after 1 year of infidelity and uncertainty is making overtures to leave (for a recently separated coworker she's known for 3 months). This is after all the excuses, talk of working things out, and denials. She keeps telling me she loves me and saying there isn't anywhere she'd rather be yet her words to him are damning. So now I'm sitting back letting her figure it out and smiling even though her words make her every mannerism fake. I'm just full blown tired and broken inside but I have to be the responsible one. Her freedom will leave with none physically, economically, chronologically, and emotionally. How will I deal with the kids who won't understand everytime they ask 'where's mama?', 'is mama home?', 'is mama coming back?', etc. Questions they ask when she's just gone to the store cuts like a knife. The youngest (2) will search through the house for us on a good day. How do I deal? How do I keep from shutting down? How do I interact with others in a small town where once she leaves the word will be out and the questions will fall on me? As I type she's at work. She just got through telling me that she loves me. I just threw up and nasty cried. Well gotta go. Time to clean my face and suck it up before picking them up from school.